I AM INCONSPICUOUS
28 November 2009 @ 01:32 am
A LIST:

  • Today my Monster Munch t-shirt arrived! It's absolutely huge on me, but it's freaking awesome ♥

  • Today was was the last day of university year two week nine. That means there are three weeks until this semester ends. THREE WEEKS. That's it. I feel like time is rushing past me at an alarming rate. In three weeks most of my housemates will be halfway through uni. I'm on a four year course so I'm not even a third of the way through yet, but still. I feel like the FUTURE is about to come slamming straight into me and I'm not going to be ready. It's a horrifying thought.
    I decided on the masters course I'm on because I wanted to put off deciding what the hell I wanted to do after uni. The time for decision making is coming ever closer.
    I do not like it one bit.
    NOT ONE BIT.




  • Tomorrow I am going shopping for a santa outfit. We're doing a huge girly night out next weekend, we've invited every single girl we know ever to come out dressed as (sexy) santa's and we're making everyone pay like, £2 and we're giving it to a breast cancer charity. I'm very excited! It's going to be freaking awesome if everyone who said they would come. The facebook group has 40 people confirmed. CRAZY TIMES RIGHT?

  • Boys suck. I think I'm getting more freaked out about the whole memory loss thing as days go by. My housemates went out for a drink earlier but I didn't go (I stayed home and watched She's All That instead!) because a) I couldn't be bothered to put on actual clothes and b) THE THOUGHT OF ALCOHOL SCARES ME SOMEWHAT. :/
    Urg urg urg urg urg.

  • I just downloaded Bat For Lashes album! I LOVE IT. I have a propper thing about ethereal women singers at the moment (well, Florence + The Machine, anyway)

  • My housemate Charlotte is in hospital with Gall Stones, and she's going to have to have her gall bladder removed and is going to miss a hell of a lot of uni. Possibly she'll have to redo the year! :( Times are bad. I went to visit today and it was highly depressing. Hospitals are horrible horrible places, and her mother kept fussing. It irritated me, and it wasn't even happening to me. I think Char likes being fussed over, but still. Urg. I am SO GLAD I am not generally ill. SO GLAD.
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    27 November 2009 @ 12:54 am
    Okay, so.
    LAST NIGHT.

    I made an entry about it this morning, but tbh, I was still kind of drunk when I wrote that! I have had time to process now.

    Basically, what we're saying is: do not drink shots from strangers when they randomly come up to you and tell you to drink it.
    BAD TIMES OCCUR.
    (No, really. Serious)

    Some people think I was just stupidly drunk last night, but I'm fairly certain now that the shot was spiked. I don't normally throw up from drinking. I do not normally have memory loss. Literally - I have never had memory loss after a night out, and it's not like I've never been stupidly stupidly drunk before when memory loss could possibly occur. I've never thrown up either. When I went to James' party with the free bar, I was stuuuuupidly drunk and cat threw up, but I did not. I DO NOT THROW UP (from alcohol), BASICALLY.
    So these two things kind of tell me I was spiked.
    As well as how I cannot remember anything after that shot.
    That kind of clues me in too.

    So, THINGS I REMEMBER HAPPENING:
  • Going to a house party at Joes house
  • Getting a taxi to Bar One
  • Meeting Will (from home) and Leila (off my course)
  • Drinking a random shot from some random guy that was possibly(probably) spiked
  • Going to the toilet with this guy called Harry (I have this strange tendency to make guys come to the loo with me. I make them wait outside and stuff, I have no idea why I don't take girls with me. Surely that would make more sense?) and trying to convince him he was in love with Leila (he was determined that he wasn't)
  • Talking to Will more, and probably being highly embarrassing
  • THIS IS WHERE I START NOT REMEMBERING ANYTHING
  • Meeting this guy called Jamie who my housemate knows from back home. I have no idea where I met him, it could have been Bar One, it could have been Roar (Club night at the union), it could have been some random other time, I have no idea.
  • MORE NOT REMEMBERING
  • Walking past the Union hanging off Jamie
  • Attempting to text my friend. I normally send pretty literate texts whilst drunk, but this one said: 'm.w/ a guy caulders jamsiemode
  • MORE BLANKS
  • Jamie being all 'Hey, I live over there let's go to mine! And me being all 'fuck no I'm not going to your house!'
  • MORE BLANK SPACE
  • Lying on my living room floor (well, I was told it was my living room floor, I just remembering lying down) and getting off with Jamie. It's all a bit of a blur, but no sex occurred (I got his number off Laura today and made COMPLETELY SURE that there is NO WAY I AM PREGNANT. I think I pissed him off, I asked at least 5 times. GUTTED MATE, shouldn't have gotten off with the wasted girl who can't remember anything, should you) which is a good time. Fingering did apparently occur though, urg. I also remember it being pretty shit and getting bored after awhile and being all 'OKAY YOU CAN LEAVE NOW BYE BYE!' and him being all '... WHUT?!' and me making him go (I think that pissed him off too, bless)
  • MORE NOT REMEMBERING. Apparently Katherine's boyf (who may or may not actually be her boyf but whatever) came into the living room to get a drink from the Kitchen and I was lying on the sofa completely covered by a blanket and he didn't notice me at first so I scared the hell out of him. And then apparently I accidentally flashed Katherine, threw up in the sink and then threw up all over the bathroom until I could throw up no more (literally, she said I was trying to throw up but nothing would come out) and then she made me go to bed.
    AND THEN IT WAS THE MORNING


    I'm not so bothered about the whole Jamie thing. No pregnancy, though I'm still kind of worried. Not in a real way, it's just that I have to take someone else's word for it since I can't remember.
    THAT'S THE WORST PART.
    NOT REMEMBERING A THING.

    I don't have a CLUE how I got to Roar (apparently I went! My ticket was ripped off like I'd been in! And apparently I was seen by one of heather's mates there right at the beginning!) or anything that happened in Bar One (apparently I did a shot! And was with Cat and Rich for quite a while! NO RECOLLECTION OF THIS WHATSOEVER)

    Anything could have happened to me. I wasn't in a state to get myself out of any trouble that might have come my way.
    It's so scary!!
    I mean, I think I was pretty lucky with everything that happened. It's now one of those funny BAD TIMES! stories people tell, or at least, it will be in the future. Right now it's just highly embarrassing.
    What would have happened if Katherine hadn't found me in the living room and I did that whole drowning in your own vomit thing?? What if I'd gone to Jamies house and HAD SEX?! WHAT IF I'D WOKEN UP AT JAMIES HOUSE?!?!?!

    I can't think of anything worse than waking up thinking everything is fine (which is how I woke up this morning, I had a lovely second before the memory - or LACK of it - kicked in) and then being IN SOMEONE ELSES BED, or just, somewhere else in general.


    Everyone was so drunk last night. Cat had to be taken home by her boyfriend, who was pretty wasted himself and Heather was wasted, and that's when things start getting messy. And dangerous. When everyone is like that you lose people and bad times happen. Heather said she had to walk home by herself because she'd lost everyone. We only live like, a ten minute walk from the Union but still. That's not what you want to be doing.

    SO. GUYS.
    DEAR FL.

    DO NOT BE STUPID LIKE ME. I WAS LUCKY, BUT I MIGHT NOT HAVE BEEN.

    DO NOT DRINK SHOTS FROM SHIFTY STRANGERS (unless they buy it at the bar and it's been watched by you at all times!)
    DO NOT LEAVE YOUR DRINK ANYWHERE
    DO NOT DRINK ANYTHING YOU THINK COULD HAVE THE SLIGHTEST CHANCE OF BEING SPIKED
    Look after your friends, look after yourself. Always be with someone you trust. I'm glad I was with Jamie, even if we did ~do things~ on our sofa, because at least I know him vaguely, and Laura knows him pretty well. I know that he might be a bit of a slag but he's not some kind of monster rapist guy. At the very least I trusted him not to do anything I didn't want (case in point - he left when I told him to).


    Urg.
    I never want to get that bad again.
    I never want to DRINK again.
    -___________-
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    25 November 2009 @ 06:30 pm
    I HAVE NEW SHOES!!!

    I have THESE kind of booty things, which are very nice and I like them a lot, but are kind of boring in comparison to THESE BEASTS!!!.

    They are SHOES OF DEATH, I wore them out on Monday (whilst wearing a police costume! Complete with handcuffs and baton, whoop whoop!) and MY FEET DIED. They are SO HIGH and the heel is SO THIN. They're not platformed or anything though, thank goodness, if they were I think I'dve broken my ankle.
    I don't care though, because they are gorgeous beautiful things and everyone I saw exclaimed wildly about how much they loved them.
    I was very smug with my fit fit shoes.
     
     
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    Current Music: Bat For Lashes - Bat's Mouth
     
     
    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    22 November 2009 @ 11:57 pm
    Oh my word.
    I HAVE A FABULOUS NEW WAY TO PROCRASTINATE!
    It is called MYSTERY GOOGLE


    I spent hours on it today, oh my. It's hilarious.

    I asked someone to send me a photo of a dinosaur eating the Jonas Brothers. THIS is what I was sent. \o/

    I also asked people to give me advice, and I was told that licking other people's fridge handles is a bad idea.

    Someone wrote me a freaking awesome story. This is the story! )

    I advised someone to dress up as Misty and Ash from Pokemon and they said OH DUH OFC WE SHOULD
    I send someone a load of lolcats and they replied saying I'd made their day.
    I texted someone in America who was all 'TEXT ME IF YOU'RE BRITISH!' and they were HIGHLY EXCITED.

    EVERYONE SHOULD PLAY ON MYSTERY GOOGLE.
    ITS SO FUN!!! :D


    (It's also stopping me from doing my homework, which I really need to do, but WHATEVER)
     
     
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    Current Music: All Time Low - Damned If I Do Ya (Damned If I Don't)
     
     
    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    13 November 2009 @ 06:22 pm
    There is this guy in my physics class. I may have ranted about him before, I do not remember. I know I have done an ~anonymous~ meme about him before. LOL, BYE BYE ANONYMITY.

    Anyway. He is THE UGLIEST THING EVER, bless him. His features do not go together well. He has crazy scientist hair, he has the startings of a bald patch. He has TERRIBLE TERRIBLE DRESS SENSE. However, he is ADORABLE, in a weird way. He is also strangely pretty. I don't even know HOW, but he just kind of... IS. It's not at all obvious, if I said this out loud to anyone who also knew this guy would be all '... YOU WHAT?!?!????'
    I think it has something to do with his eyelashes, and his crazy spindly fingers. I think he'd be ACTUALLY pretty if you took away the awkward expression and his crazy long pointy nose that's going on.

    He intrigues me. A lot. I am FOREVER STARING AT HIM. I do not think he has noticed yet, thank goodness, but I do.


    ANYWAY. TODAY MY LAB PARTNER TOLD ME HE'S TRANSEXUAL.
    So he should actually be she.
    (JUST TO MAKE CLEAR, since I realised what I've written it isn't actually clear, HE'S A GUY. WHO WANTS TO BE A GIRL. From what I understand, anyway)
    Rashida (my lab partner!) didn't actually say that in so many words, but she was talking about this guy called Sean who he's (she's?) friends with and was all 'Oh yeah, Sean and James. No, Mia, were doing this thing blah blah' and carried on with the conversation.

    I was like '!!!!'

    But also carried on with the conversation because showing too much interest in James/Mia would make me seem SLIGHTLY STRANGE, I think.


    SO I DID SOME FACEBOOK STALKING, TO SEE IF THIS WAS TRUE.
    AND IT IS.
    At least, I think it is, because the person listed as Mia has no photos, but still. She's friends with both Rashida and Sean, so it's obviously going to be the right person (especially as neither of them have any friends called James!)


    It has made my BRAIN HURT from all the thinking that has been going on.
    Firstly, am I supposed to refer to her as HER from now on? Or still as him, because had Rashida not told me, I would be NONE THE WISER. She still comes to uni as a guy! I do not blame her IN THE SLIGHTEST though, imagine how hard it'd be to come into uni all of a sudden a different gender. Like, if I went into uni on Monday with my hair shaved off and my boobs bound and asked everyone to called me Dan? Urg, I can't even imagine how difficult that would be.
    Am I supposed to know? Is it a big secret?? Should I call her Mia, or him James? Mia since clearly that's what she WANTS to be called, or James since she's not... out as a girl? Though really, I shouldn't really be calling her/him anything since we have NEVER SPOKEN BEFORE IN OUR LIVES. Knowing this much is probably kind of stalkerish and pervy!

    It's also just kind of made me think a lot about trans people in general.
    FOR EXAMPLE: Original Plumbing Magazine.
    Fit guy (jeeze, so fit), only with a vagina.
    Should this matter? Does this matter to me?
    I HONESTLY DON'T KNOW.


    And gosh, if *I* feel so fucking confused about everything, fuck knows how Mia must feel!

    So anyway, she is now EVEN MORE INTERESTING TO ME THAN SHE WAS BEFORE.
    And I continue to stare like a massive massive perv. And will probably continue to do so.
    Urg, self!

    I just needed to share the ~info~. I don't really feel right talking about it to anyone IRL, I'd feel too much like I was being a gossip.



    Also: I hope I do not come across as being a douchebag. I don't really know why I would, but still. I hope I do not come across like that! :S



    ALSO: I am going to see La Roux in half an hour! WHOOP :D
     
     
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    12 November 2009 @ 11:29 pm
    AHHAHA.
    I made a website just to see if I could.

    Turns out I couldn't. Not without a LOT OF DIFFICULTY, anyway. All my ~skillz~ from when I was 14 have left me. UTTER WOE.



    On a better note, in my programming in C class today, I did everything right! Last week I FAILED MISERABLY at trying to write a program to put three numbers in order. TODAY I RULED AT FINDING THE AGES OF A LIST OF STUDENTS FROM THEIR DATES OF BIRTH AND THEN PUTTING THEM INTO TWO DIFFERENT LISTS DEPENDING ON THEIR GENDERS. THATS RIGHT BABY.
    THE PROGRAMMING QUEEN IS BACK ON FORRRRRRM \o/
    (I also got 9/10 in my last C programming assessment. I AM A QUEEN AT PROGRAMMING. THAT IS RIGHT!)
     
     
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    11 November 2009 @ 07:46 pm
    Oh my gosh, I am SO TIRED right now.
    SO TIRED.
    I came upstairs for a nap but I've been bumming around on the internet for several hours instead, like you do, so now I'm still way tired and now also hungry because tea time should have happened at half 6 and that was an hour ago and I was supposed to be asleep, dammit. I'm too tired to cook.
    I have no food anyway.


    So I am tired. And I ache all over.
    I went swimming this morning. OH JESUS. WHY DID NO-ONE TELL ME HOW MUCH SWIMMING HURTS?!
    I do not remember swimming being so painful and tiring when I was younger! I guess though, I've not been in a swimming pool since I was approximately 13. I got in and did an length of breast stroke and IT WAS HORRIBLE. Plus there was a very fit lifeguard guy with tattoos and plugs and shit, which was woeful since I was the slowest swimmer in the slow lane and generally looked like an idiot.

    Also yesterday I got up at HALF PAST 6 IN THE MORNING to go to yoga and I think I overstretched my back because that hurts, and I went to the gym an hour, AND I went to swing dance in the evening (Swing dance is so much fun, I'm getting better! I can string together moves and shit now! \o/).

    So anyway.
    I AM TIRED.
    YET I AM NOT ASLEEP.
    WHY AM I NOT ASLEEP?
    D:
     
     
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    03 November 2009 @ 06:13 pm
    A few points:

  • I have the MOST MASSIVE SPOT IN THE WORLD currently erupting from my forehead. It's very painful! And very red because I can't stop poking at it. D:

  • I dressed up as a mummy for Halloween. WANNA SEE PHOTOS? I LOOKED FREAKING AWESOME, IMO )

  • I am thinking of applying for Camp America or CCUSA for the summer of 2010. Opinions everyone?? Has anyone done something like this/does anyone know someone who's done something similar? Are American children as terrifying as I imagine them to be? (They seem way more... in your face than English kids.)( Not being AT ALL stereotypical here of course! lol)
    It seems like a great thing to do over the summer, plus it'd look pretty damn awesome on my CV. Plus I'd be in America which would be pretty cool! (but also scary since there would ONLY BE ME there and everyone else I know would be in England. Eep!)
    Idk, idk. It's quite a lot of money, and whilst you get paid whilst you're over there, you don't actually break even. I've heard it's about £600, all in and you only get something like £350 back. You do get free food and board and flights organised for you though!

    I'm thinking about it anyway...
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    28 October 2009 @ 09:58 pm
    Machinarium

    Play this game! You only get to play 3 levels, but it's so good! I love puzzle games. I want to play the whole thing, but I do not have £12 to spend on computer games.
    WOE.



    Today my family came to visit me. We had a nice meal at the posh(ish) Italian in town, and it was lovely. They also brought me lots of cake, so I am very happy.
     
     
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    27 October 2009 @ 02:10 pm
    I never ever update on here any more! My FL has gotten very quiet lately, no one seems to be doing much internetting.

    I got my ears pierced on Saturday for the first time so I've been looking around websites obsessively for earrings. A whole new jewellery item I didn't have before! It's very exciting. I keep poking at the studs and now they hurt, I can't stop. It's bad times! And I keep thinking I've got MASSIVE SPOTS on my ear lobes, which is very very odd.

    But anyway: look at all the awesome earrings! )


    I have absolutely masses of work to do this week (assesed homework AND a Lab Report! URG) and I can't be botheredddddd. Hence the looking at earrings when I should have been working. Woe.


    I also read Pride and Prejudice this week! It was SO GOOD. I only read it because my housemates really want to have a marathon watch of the 6hr BBC version, and I refused to watch it until I'd read it, so I did. And I am glad, since it was awesome. Yay.
     
     
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    Current Music: Frightened Rabbit - Head Rolls Off
     
     
    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    17 October 2009 @ 03:05 pm
    What's the best pick-up line you ever heard (or tried)? What's the worst? If you're instantly attracted to someone, will a stupid pick-up line dampen your interest?



    We once won a bottle of champagne for this a pub quiz. CLEAR WINNER:

    Do you have a mirror in your pants, because I can see myself in there tonight!
     

    I also quite like:

    Here's my library card - I'm checking you out!
     
     
    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    11 October 2009 @ 11:52 pm


    I'm going to introduce y'all to a little show called Trinity.

    Sundays. 10pm. ITV2.
    Put it on your calender.

    It's amazing! Episode one especially went a little something like this: someone died. a very hot guy got naked. someone else died. creepy stalking around and old guys talking cryptically. More sex. More hot naked guy. Rinse and repeat.

    It's basically a mix up between a ~murder mystery~, skins and slapstick comedy. Which might sound ridiculous, and that's because it is mostly ridiculous. But it's ridiculous in the way that once you get over it being god awful, it's actually TELEVISION GOLD.
    Plus it has Reggie Yates in it, and he's always hilarious.


    VISUALS. FIT GUY THIS WAY EVERYONE. THAT'S RIGHT. FIIIIIIIIIIT )


    There have been 4 episodes, and there are 4 more to go, I think.
    JUMP ON, WATCH IT.



    Also: watch Merlin. I fucking love that show, but I keep missing it on tv. I've not caught one episode yet! Thank god for the internet.
     
     
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    10 October 2009 @ 09:24 pm
    Today, I went to pilates. I don't think I did it right though. You're supposed to do it all whilst having your stomach muscles locked and I don't think I did. I couldn't tell if I had them locked or not most of the time, which sounds stupid but I couldn't!

    I also went to the gym with Char and Cat.

    I found out that I love the treadmill! I was running for 25 minutes today and it was amazing. I felt so energised and free (I don't know why free, since I was pretty much stuck in once place!) and basically awesome. I love the way you feel all floaty once you come off it. I love being healthy! I kind of want to be running now.

    I know treadmilling is easier than actual running, but still.



    Basically what I'm saying is: why did I not exercise 'till now?!
    Though I guess time will tell if this is just a phase or I'm actually going to keep at it. I'd better keep at it, my gym membership was £150 (which sounds a lot but it's actually only £5 a week. If I wasn't a member going to yoga and pilates would cost me £6 anyway, so BARGAIN. Ish) and that I do not want to waste!
     
     
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    08 October 2009 @ 05:20 pm
    I HAVE INTERNETS AT HOME ONCE AGAIN!!

    Oh my word, it is amazing. I am at home! I can browse the internet at will!


    Things I have done whilst being away:

  • Been gigging. THRICE. Indeed.
    I saw All Time Low, in Manchester. The support acts were The Friday Night Boys, who were good, and The Audition, who were amazing. My favourite part was when ATL wanted us to make a circle pit and Jack said "Make it big, like my dick!" and then "Hey! I said my dick, not Alex's! Make it bigger!". This amused me greatly.
    I also saw Hadouken! at the union. They were very good! I also got completely wasted on two pints of strongbow (and two vodka and cokes!) because we figured we could spend the money we didn't spend on transport could go on drinks. And beacuse the support band was completely rubbish and we started talking to a guy who was the most boring person ever, and we had to drown our sorrows. Or something. We met some equally sozzled 17yr old boys on our way out. We hung with them whilst they waited for a parent to come pick them up. Bless them, they were adorable and hilarious.
    Then YESTERDAY I went to Preston to visit Jane with Naomi, and we saw Tinchy Stryder with Chipmunk as support. That was amusing more than good.
  • I joined the gym! I have yet to go yet though, because I've not had my induction session yet. That is tomorrow morning. Jolly!
  • I went to yoga at half seven in the morning! I ACTUALLY GOT UP TO GO! And it was really good (though I do ache a bit now) and I think I will go again next week!
    AND! I'm going to go to pilates on Saturday.
  • I am considering joining Swing Dance society! I am considering joining the Volleyball club!

    BASICALLY, WHAT I AM SAYING HERE, IS WOAH, I AM AMAZING.


    The problem is that I've done no school-related work at all.
    I have a module in Quantum Mechanics this year, and it is the most ridiculously hard thing I've ever had to do, I understand very little of it. It's very saddening.
    I should really do some work.


    Oh well.
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    26 September 2009 @ 03:21 pm
    Hi internets.
    I still don't have access to the internet at my house and I am once again at the pub. :/


    Last night I went to the most amazing 21st birthday party. It must've cost a bomb because there were free drinks for everyone. I had 3 champagnes, 4 cocktails and 5 shots ALL FOR FREE. I was completely wasted, it was ridiculous. So much fun though. He had this weird slide thing made of ice that you did shots from which was very very cool (haha, literally, being made of ice and all!)

    Tonight everyone is talking about going to an ice hockey match which sounds like it should be fun.

    On Wednesday I'm going to see All Time Low in Manchester and I am VERY EXCITED. The Audition are supporting and I am also pretty damned excited about seeing them too!

    Lectures start at 9am on Monday. Not looking forewards to that.


    OH, LIFE. I've been spending a lot of my time watching crappy day time soaps (ie, Neighbours. Home and Away) and it's mostly been very boring. I've been a crappy not-fresher. Most people I know have been going out every night. I keep staying in and playing this University Challenge game with next door. I'm ridiculous. Today I watched Time Team.



    What's been happening in internet land everyone? Anything exciting? I've not had time to keep reading my fl and now I feel very disconnected from everything. I do occasionally watch the news now though, so I guess something good has come out of the lack of internet connection!

     
     
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    20 September 2009 @ 02:59 pm
    I am currently in the pub across the street from my new house at uni. I get free internet here! ITS AMAZING.
    I miss the internet D:

    I may come back here, check my emails and stuff, because I think I'm still going to be two weeks without the internet. We can't get BT in to put us in a landline until the 28th, I think, and obviously we can't get our internet sorted until we have a landline in.

    SO MUCH WOE.


    Still, my new room is pretty funky. I'm happy, haha. It's nice to be back.
     
     
    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    17 September 2009 @ 12:19 am
    I'm all packed up and ready to go to Uni tomorrow. I cba to go, really. BUT OH WELL.

    The amount of stuff I own seems to have doubled in size since last year. It's kind of ridiculous. (if anyone wants to compare, here is my entry from leaving last year, and here is a quick and crappy phone photo of what I have so far. THAT IS NOT EVERYTHING. I HAVE A RUG AND A COMPUTER AND ANOTHER BAG IN MY ROOM STILL, PLUS FOUR BAGS OF FOOD IN THE KITCHEN)
    I have no idea how I'm going to fit this all in the car.


    ~ ~ ~


    Recently I've been feeling, idk. Weird. Like a fraud, somehow. I'm not really sure why. It doesn't really make sense, so I've no idea why I feel like a fraud. I just know that I do.

    Sometimes, I feel as if being gay is like a having a bucket of water, and how full your bucket is corresponds to how gay you are. Sometimes I feel like the fuller your bucket is, the better you are, and I can't help but feel like my bucket isn't very full at all. I don't FEEL gay. Not as much as I think I'd like. I just feel normal.

    I'm not sure why I think I ought to feel differently and how that is somehow better, but.

    I think this stupid view of life is why I don't really like the idea of gay club nights and why the thought of going to the LGBT meetings at uni makes me so uncomfortable. I just feel like being bisexual (like being me) isn't enough. I feel like I'll always be the odd one out. I'll always be less gay than everyone else, or something?

    I don't even know why I'm thinking like this, because I'd always figured before that being bi is more like being gay AND straight rather than HALF gay and HALF straight, so more like having two buckets instead of a half full one.




    Urg. I fail at LIFE.
     
     
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    10 September 2009 @ 03:10 pm
    I MADE A WALLET WITH KEVIN JONAS ON THE FRONT.
    ITS AWESOME.
    OH YEAH.

    CLICK FOR THE AWESOME )

    It's kind of larger than I'm used to carrying around with me (usually I have this tiny little pouch thing that holds credit cards, only I make it carry everything else as well)(everything else being some money and some plasters. I travel light) so I don't know if I'm actually going to be using it much. Still, Kevin Jonas!!

    I am the coolest kid on the block.
    Clearly.
     
     
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    Current Music: Kids In Glass Houses - Raise Hell
     
     
    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    08 September 2009 @ 05:50 pm
    Leeds photos are here!

    Apologies for the crappy scans, my scanner is rubbish and then seemed to want to turn everything pink for some reason? I have no idea.


    ONWARDS MY LOVELIES! )
     
     
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    I AM INCONSPICUOUS
    05 September 2009 @ 12:19 am
    I HAS A FIC REC!

    LIKE THE TIDE by [info]arsenicjade and [info]untappedbeauty

    It's Ryan/Spencer, which I normally HATE but HOLY CRAP. IT MADE ME CRY. Actualfax tears and everything!
    I normally hate Ryan Ross and tend to refuse to read fic about him, but I had nothing better to do at the time and I fort WHAT THE HECK. (I did have to pretend it was about someone else who just happened to have the name Ryan, but still!)

    This is a Good Fic. I stayed up 'till 5.30am reading it. :O





    Also, I would like to shoo everyone in THIS DIRECTION and to recommend that everyone read EVERYTHING ON THAT LIST.

    MAYBE IT IS EMBARRASSING TO ADMIT THAT I LIKE FIC ABOUT KEVIN JONAS AND MIKE CARDEN, BUT, HONESTLY, THEY'RE FUCKING HILARIOUS.
    Or at least, Kevin is (HE'S A FUCKING JONAS BROTHER, BLESS HIM), and Mike Carden has always been pretty hot, so.

    MAINLY I LIKE TO LOL AT THEM, SO. GET UR LOLZ OVER THERE \o/
     
     
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